Help me stay. Help carry me away.

For anyone reading this, and if you're into heavy stuff, check out my good friend's band To Cherish. You can download their newest EP here. Honestly the best unsigned band in Ontario. Hands down.

Also, I am very excited for the new Chariot album. They have put up videos with clips from songs, live shows, and of themselves hand stamping their new C.D. covers and it is getting me really stoked on the album.

I saw Have Heart tonight and they were so amazing. So much emotion and energy in their set. Would love to see them again.

Tomorrow, well, I guess today I'll be seeing Converge, which is going to be insane. I am really really excited and hope they play all my favourites.

I hate that I can't see my girlfriend more often.

I am kind of stressed about some important things. I guess we'll have to wait and see.

For the times they are a-changin'.

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I get worried a lot. I worry about different things, but there is always at least something. I think I'm just scared I'm not going to get what I want out of life. It's so hard to tell where to go and what to do and what's worthwhile and what's not. I guess that's just life. You don't know what's going to happen. I'm just scared of the future. Scared of even a year from now.

I hate being so far away from you. I wish I could be with you all the time. Everything is alright when we're together.

I still hate you. I know I shouldn't hate anyone, I should forgive everyone. But sometimes it feels good to hate some people. You irritate me like a fucking piece of food stuck in my teeth and I can't wait for the day that the food comes loose and you disappear forever.

I have a new guilty pleasure. All of my guilty pleasures aren't bands that I'm ashamed to like because they're poppy or mainstream, it's always the bands I've bashed and then gone back and relistened and realized they aren't all that bad.

Oh god what I'd give to feel the slightest bit alive again.

So I could be the boy you couldn't be

Lately I have written some lyrics. I plan on writing songs as a side project and using them for that. Here's 2 songs so far.

My Light

What have I done?

Let go of the only thing that matters to me. My light.
Forgiveness seems years from now. I'd do anything for redemption.
This didn't have to happen, what have I done?
I'll pray to god every fucking night that you'll see I care.
I'll despise myself forever.

I need you. My light.

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Fucking Desperate

Who do you think you are?
You're worthless. Fucking desperate, and I've had it up to here with you and and your fake attitude.
I don't care if this makes you want to end your fucking life, you're dead to me and dead inside. And let's not talk about your insides, they've seen more than I care to imagine. You don't know, so don't think you fucking know.
You're fucking desperate. You're a fucking fake. Get it together.

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I know everyone says "No Regrets" but I'll always have one.


The sun can take too long
to end the endless night