mrs. montgomery alabama iii

I'm not one for conspiracy theories, but today Mark showed me all this stuff about the New World Order and FEMA. It's super fucked up/scary and I plan on researching more into it. I think stuff like this is really interesting and I'll post more about it when I know more.

I have to be up for work soon but I can't sleep.

outbound

I've seriously given this my all for the past 3 months. And I have been holding on to foolish hopes.

I would keep all the cute texts I got and read them on the days where things weren't looking as promising. And I always imagined what it would be like if stuff was good.



I don't really know what to do with myself. All I know is, a) I'm not looking for anything with anyone (not that I ever was) and now b) Even if someone shows interest I don't care.

RUUUUTEBAGAAAAAA

This video makes me LOL so much haha.



P.S. While I was in Ireland in the summer, I went to a show, by myself and met so many rad people. I met a dude who even loved Bad Seed haha, anyway this is his band, they're called Find A Way and they're awesome gruff pop punk, check em out!

www.myspace.com/findawayhardcore

the last song i'll ever want to sing

Last night seems pretty surreal. Like a great dream. I had an awesome night, and wish I could have that every night.

Here's to hoping it was more then just a dream.

"theres nothing left to do, but sit and wait, and sit and wait, and sit and wait"

the king of wishful thinking

I hate when I get a text thinking it's you, and then isn't.

i will lie awake

I seriously dont know what to think anymore.

I feel like I'm stepping out of character, and I really hope that doesn't happen.



Im sinkin like a stone in the sea,
Im burning like a bridge for your body.

do me a favour baby dont reply

On Saturday I hit the lowest I've been in a long, long time. It was one main thing with a bunch of smaller things adding to it. I literally was so upset I just sat in my car in a parking lot for an hour by myself. I couldn't be around anyone.

Maybe I should have seen this coming from a mile away. I didn't. It was what I feared most all along, the worst case scenario. And I just told myself everything would be fine in some time.

I wasn't planning on liking anyone this soon. I just happened to find someone I really liked spending time with. And it just sort of happened. I don't regret that it did. Just wish there was a different outcome.

I'm hoping things will eventually work out. Even if it's highly unlikely.

when you went away, you said you'd be, comin up my front porch, just to see me.

im really not happy with anything today.


things i want for christmas:

-money for rent
-some self esteem
-motivation
-owen vinyl



thats it really