Never I.

I just want to go on tour and leave this town for a while. I'll miss my girlfriend a ton, but I just really need to tour.

I'm still looking for that true and dependable friend from my last post.

I hate bullshit.

Define. Define. Define. Define. Refine. Refine.

No love can save me.

I feel like I have no real, true, friends. All claim to be there for me and I always think none of them would betray me but time and time again they do. I am sick of people bullshitting me and being fake. Either stay true to your fucking word or you are not my friend. I am sick of lies, I am sick of being played like a fool because I give everyone the benefit of the doubt and trust them. Say one thing, do the opposite. I just wish I had a guy friend I was close enough with to tell them everything and be able to completely confide in them and not get fucked over.

I still hate you. You're still worthless, you always will be.

Trust no one.

forgive me destiny, this world has fucking destroyed me.

You do something to me that I can't explain

I don't think it is possible for me to not play music. This week I have 3 different band practices, insane I know, but I live for it. I just want to be able to do music all the time, all different projects with different people. Some polished and precise, others organic and raw. Some sweet and catchy, some dissonant and noisy, some sad, some happy, some angry. I feel like if I won the lottery all I would do is buy a big house and lots of gear and recording equipment and just write and record all the time. I hope one of these days I can do that.

Except I am not a good enough/confident enough musician/writer to write anything worthwile mostly by myself. I wish I was.


get me out of here.

Oh my name it means nothin, my age it means less

This weekend I saw old friends I went to highschool with, it was really nice. It was also really nice to see my girlfriend who I hadn't seen in 3 weeks.

I am quite excited for the Rockets! set on Friday, it will be a fun time.

My lenten promise to give up fast food has stayed strong, I am surprised I have gone without McDonalds for so long.

I love Bob Dylan so much but I also love when people do wicked Bob Dylan covers.

I hope the next few months go well. I really want to tour!

I wish I could get a better job.

I can't think of a line to end this nicely.